In some selfish, twisted universe somewhere else that is not here, I rule over the world with an iron fist. My brain infests all beings and they do what I say. Nothing is wrong. No one does anything I don't want them to.

However, this is not a selfish and twisted world. This is the real world, which is still selfish and twisted, but has individualism. People have the right to make choices.

Choices. Sometimes they really hurt. Those kids behind me in math need to stop talking about getting high. That kid needs to stop bugging me because I think smoking and drugs are wrong. I have such a need to express things to them. Yell at them. But I don't. I never have. I keep everything, all of my opinions bottled up in a sad little jar which is my brain. I dwell upon it for hours and hours and hours until I just kind of want to do something violent about it. I don't do violent things. My heart aches. I've been quiet for so long and I have been so passive, and I'm afraid I'm just going to blow up on the wrong person. I am afraid what I'm going to do to people around me and to myself. I want to cry. I've forgotten how.

I'm just not very happy right now.

I'm doing a livestream.

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It's funny. In real life I am a very talkative person, but on the internet I find it hard to divulge any information.
Regardless, here is a message to let you know I am ALIVE. These past few days I have been sick with a virus. Speaking of viruses, I have a biology quiz today.... that's the reason I am going back to school all pale and shaky and whatever.

I got into my school's art honor's society program. I should be happy, but I'm not because they hated my portfolio but knew my work and knew I could do better than that. So... it's bittersweet.

Ugh. I don't really like this virus to much, kiddies. It feels like someone is scooping out my insides. Like in that picture I drew the other day of my new favorite villain? ( [link] ) Yeah. That blurry guy in the background. That's what I feel like.

But alas, it is early, and I must run away to the land of learning and fifty pound back packs.

Oh... one last thing....

Have you ever questioned your sexuality?

That's all.


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Be one of the first 14 people commenting on this journal entry, and I will add you to the "Promotional List".

For each of the first 14 people answering this journal I will put his or her avatar and the three deviations I like most from his or her gallery on the list.

If you answer, you'll have to do the same on your journal, putting me in the first position. Then rinse and repeat!


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pick one or more of my ocs.

Ask about any of my characters and I will answer these questions about them. Please check to see if someone else already asked about the character cause I get the feeling there's gonna be repeats.
1) how you thought of their name
2) what made you create the character in the first place
3) how the character has changed over time (if they have changed)
4) any random fun fact about that character

I'm really tired so I'll write a trip summary later.

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